I went to the gym tonight and had a awesome workout! I can't believe it, I spent two hours at the gym. I have NEVER spent that long there. Tonight I knew that I did not have to be home at a certain time. so I just kept going. You know, I wish that I could spend a whole week at the gym working out all day long and meet my goals by the end of the week. Oh, well.

When I got done, I felt so awesome. I felt like I could conquer the world. I seriously felt like yelling and screaming because I felt so good. Working out at night is so much different for me than working out in the morning. In the morning, I drag myself in there and drag myself out. So, I think I am going to start working out at night.

I had an awesome spiritual experience on the way home. It probably had something to do with the endorphins, but my feelings were already there, they just magnified the love I feel for God. I so want to do His will for my life. I feel like I have been in a spiritual coma for a long time. I have been happy and complacent just living a lifestyle of being a Christian, but not doing any real spiritual work (such as reading my Bible and denying myself from my personal sins), and therefore not having any real intimacy with my Creator. After a shamefully long period of conviction, I am finally starting to read my Bible on a regular basis. That is why I was listening to K-love to help get me into a worshipful attitude. The first song got me thinking about spiritual things, but the next song just struck me to the core. I have not experienced anything like that since before I was married and I had to lean on God for my daily sustanance. While I was listening it was hard to focus at first. My mind kept wandering even though my heart was in the right place. What I thought of was being intimate sexually for the first time. I know this is really personal, but it seems to fit so well. For my first time being intimite with my husband it seemed a little awkward and unnatural. But I just kept focusing on what was happening and it became like pure bliss. It was the same being intimite with God. It became pure bliss. I just kept focusing on Him and loving Him and it became pure bliss.

This is the song:
"Aaron Shust - My Savior My God"
chorus-My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior’s always there for me
My God: He was, my God; He is
My God is always gonna be

Disclaimer: I want to say that I realize that this kind of worship is just a small part of the whole picture of what worship is. I know that worship is also living one's life in obedience to God's commands. I am a Baptist, but I do believe that we were created with emotions and sometimes God chooses to touch those emotions in a powerful way.